Wow! What a gift this morning's Hukam is!!! It is the same command I
received in 1995 when I was about to be divorced and asked Guru, "What
will happen now?" I randomly opened to this Hukam, which comes before
Lavan, the wedding ceremony in Siri Guru Granth Sahib, where Guru Ram
Das engaged me to my childhood friend. We were married at Summer
Solstice the following summer.
Why to receive the same Hukam today? I asked.
Guru answered, "Guru Ram Das sang his rejoicings with this Shabad when
he gave your hand in marriage to Guru Arjan, his son and incarnate
Lord."
Raag Soohee, Fourth Mehl, Chhant, First House:
One Universal Creator God. By The Grace Of The True Guru:
If only I could meet the True Guru, the Primal Being. Discarding my faults and sins, I would chant the Lord's Glorious Praises. I meditate on the Naam, the Name of the Lord, Har, Har. Continuously, continually, I chant the Word of the Guru's Bani. Gurbani always seems so sweet; I have eradicated the sins from within. The disease of egotism is gone, fear has left, and I am absorbed in celestial peace. Through the Word of the Guru's Shabad, the bed of my body has become cozy and beautiful, and I enjoy the essence of spiritual wisdom. Night and day, I continually enjoy peace and pleasure. O Nanak, this is my pre-ordained destiny. ||1||
The soul-bride is lovingly embellished with truth and contentment; her Father, the Guru, has come to engage her in marriage to her Husband Lord. Joining with the humble Saints, I sing Gurbani. Singing the Guru's Bani, I have obtained the supreme status; meeting with the Saints, the self-elect, I am blessed and adorned. Anger and attachment have left my body and run away; I have eradicated hypocrisy and doubt. The pain of egotism is gone, and I have found peace; my body has become healthy and free of disease. By Guru's Grace, O Nanak, I have realized God, the ocean of virtue. ||2||
The self-willed manmukh is separated, far away from God; she does not obtain the Mansion of His Presence, and she burns. Egotism and falsehood are deep within her; deluded by falsehood, she deals only in falsehood. Practicing fraud and falsehood, she suffers terrible pain; without the True Guru, she does not find the way. The foolish soul-bride wanders along dismal pathways; each and every moment, she is bumped and pushed. God, the Great Giver, shows His Mercy, and leads her to meet the True Guru, the Primal Being. Those beings who have been separated for countless incarnations, O Nanak, are reunited with the Lord, with intuitive ease. ||3||
Calculating the most auspicious moment, the Lord comes into the bride's home; her heart is filled with ecstasy. The Pandits and astrologers have come, to sit and consult the almanacs. They have consulted the almanacs, and the bride's mind vibrates with bliss, when she hears that her Friend is coming into the home of her heart. The virtuous and wise men sat down and decided to perform the marriage immediately. She has found her Husband, the Inaccessible, Unfathomable Primal Lord, who is forever young; He is her Best Friend from her earliest childhood. O Nanak, he has mercifully united the bride with Himself. She shall never be separated again. ||4||1||
I know now Guru Arjan, my dearest beloved, was my true childhood friend who walked me safely across the street six inches above the ground, perhaps to show me that he was in angelic form. He looked like an angel to me. I was five or six years of age.
I know now Guru Arjan was my dearest friend who came to visit me when I was eleven as I lay in bed drifting off to sleep. He gave me simple but powerful yoga postures to hold, breathing deeply to persevere for interminable lengths of time. On relaxing, those challenges imbued my being with blissful consciously conscious awareness. Wahe Guru!
Guru Arjan spoke through Baba Singh in 1971 to advise me
to do spinal flexes and look into a mirror to see my soul, where I saw
who I had been in our lifetime together. I drew a picture of the
image's energy, so penetratingly powerful. On admitting to my sister
that the woman in the drawing was me my whole being suddenly seemed to
fill the room, my head close to the ceiling, both hands huge, full of
loving healing energy.
Guru Arjan was with me in every engagement, marrying me
to Partuk Har, his soul within each man. I saw God in my husbands even
as they abused me and cast me out. Guru Arjan gave me glimpses of our
divine reality through life's greatest betrayals and deepest sorrows,
when I most strove to be with what was pure and true.
Guru Arjan's Hukam yesterday from the Golden Temple
prepared me by causing me to shift gears to have this realization, to
come full circle, to know we are forever in eachother's embrace, two
beings, one soul, never to be separated again.